Redoing this site has forced me to re-assess my portfolio. It’s not as strong as it should be, and I need to do something about that quick. Of the pieces I’ve had on this site for the last few years, I think I still like about three, and that’s unacceptable. Of course, I’ve been in semi-retirement/hiding for about five years, so it’s a little like walking into a house you lived in a half-decade ago, and realize how memory has distorted your perception and looking at things with fresh eyes, you realize how much it was falling apart when you left it. Add to that the dust and wear-and-tear of time, and the assessment of what needs to get done becomes a little overwhelming.
So what do I need to do to fix things? The first step is to actually re-learn to draw. My mind, my eyes, and my hands have all atrophied, and getting those things into working order are first priority. The second is a little more vague and it may be even impossible, but I need to learn how to love making art again. Something happened a few years back, and I’m not quite sure what it was, but I stopped enjoying making art. There really was nothing about it that I liked anymore, so I stopped, and really haven’t thought about it for a few years. Regardless of what happened, I need to find where I need to be and what I need to be doing. The answers to these things seemed a lot more apparent when I was in my twenties, but I think I can find another, better place if I actually try.
First things first, though, I need to learn to see and react again.